Out of alignment

I have recently been out of alignment with who I am, getting sucked into negative thinking and overthinking scenarios that have happen or I think might happen. Well enough is enough I say. It's hard enough being a parent without putting extra worries on top. The last few weeks piece by piece I have been learning to love again. Love myself, love others, love the world, just be in a place of love.

My main trigger for falling out of alignment with who I was seems to be the school playground, I seem to get sucked into worrying about being judged.

After watching multiple online videos from Hay House and reading positive uplifting books I felt I was starting on the right track again, I took on the view that what others think of me is none of my business and don't dim to fit in. Which I had dimmed to fit in, instead of being the best version of myself. People are going to judge no matter what, whether this is a good judgement or not.

I am really grateful that I have amazing friends and family in my life who allow me to truly be the best version of me and allow my positive energy to shine through.

Having started on my journey back to light, my inner peace was disrupted, I was knocked way of the alignment with myself and the universe. I felt anger and rang towards the situation resulting in me saying and acting in a way that was not true to myself. Knowing that I did not act in the way I should of is what has upset my inner peace more.

I could of let myself spiral and let it eat away at me but instead I forgive myself for my past mistakes, made myself willing to learn from this and see love instead. Every time I feel myself now getting out of alignment or my inner peace being disrupted I try to remember to forgive myself for having this thought then move on.

As a parent to stay positive is challenging in itself, without the added issues of money, jobs anxiety and playground. My main one being the trigger the playground and oh wow it is like a playground, with the "he said" "she said" attitude and this is from the adults waiting for their kids. Seriously people, as Black eyed peas sing "where is the love?". If we want our kids to learn to play nice then we really need to start by example.

Playgrounds and parents shouldn't be like this, in fact none of us should show this lack of love, compassion or understanding for each other. I know I am still not fully aligned with myself but I am willing to open my heart to the universe, whom I know has my back.

So here is my request to you all, if you see someone struggling offer help, if their vibe or energy seems different ask if they are OK? Be open about your experiences, from what I have learnt the more open you are, the more people can relate and we then start to realise we are all having the same worries and become support for each other.

Much Love and Light to you all

Katrina x